Suicide

Blood trickles down my arm
Staning white flesh red
pouring from my vains
With the little strength i have i lift my arm to my mouth
I drink, i drink for friends i've had, friends i'll never have and those who i've lost
My arm falls limp
Maybe it's the pills... i took so many
Maybe it's lack of blood.... which now pools around me
Maybe it's my heart that has shattered into a million peices
Maybe it's all or nothing
Maybe it's you
I trusted you
I loved you like a sister
Now you yell and call me all the things you got mad at others for calling me
Maybe my life will end
Maybe once again my fate will be diffrent
I hear my mom enter the house
I try and respond
My lips are dry and cracked only allowing a hushed sighed
My mom panicks i hear her foot steps come closer... the door knob wiggles.... it's locked
I reach up with the last of my strength i open the door
She rushes in crying at the sight i whisper all to gently
"I'm Sorry"
That was the end to the tale
I never did awake from my slumber
Now my body lay could
My soul wanders... alone... cold
I have no warmth no place to run....
Maybe it's all the sins i've comitted
Maybe it's that even satan does not want me
Maybe it's that my soul is not worth it
Then i see you... your arms are open i run forward
Your hug is warm your hand are gentle
I feel light, you know just what to do
"Thank you" i whisper a smile crosses your lips
"My name is Lucifer... but you may call me Satan"
That was all he said before i woke up
I was laying in a hospital bed
I look at worried faces among them not yours
The ones i hold dear gather around
People who i've only met once come to take care of me
I smile at them all
Then i see you
Not a sign of remoarse not a sign of caring
You leave fingering me on your way
Then i see him floating in the window, he smiles at me i smile back


Life goes on years pass i'm happy your not
I have love and lots of friends
You are alone and bitter
I stand by my window the moon is full
"I have repayed you know you repay me" That same smooth voice say
"I shall follow you to the ends of the earth, i owe you my happyness"
My children are coming home from school
My son age 18  and his twin sister
I smile write a note then take Lucifer's hand
He smile sweetly i nod, we leave my body layed on the bed


My Note read
My Dears
I love you very much
Now i must leave you to take my rightful place
I will see you again one day, you will meet your true father
I never told you the truth and never planned too
But now i must so when i see you agian i will tell
So wait patiently
You have my love, Live strong and well
Your Mother


Now i watch them from my palace
Lucifer takes my hand and leads me forward
I look apon the person who started it all and utter two words
"I'm Sorry"
She looks at me as though i've lost it but i simply smile
A confused look crosses your face
But it soon turns to anger and hate
"YOU WHORE WHATS GOING O----"
Your sentence is cut of by the sounds of gates closing, you on one side me on the other
On my side stands many including the ones you care for, on your side you are alone
I Look sad but turn and walk away
My Crimson red dress trails behind me
I'm a queen of a new world
You are alone
We were both once together
What happened to make it this way?
No one shall never know.